Can’t seem to close it

These slowed reverb songs torment me with this space that lies between you and me. Didn’t think it was possible for me to open my heart again, but to you, I just can’t seem to close it. Moments I crave for, your presence I seek for, your smile I’m breathless for. P.S.- What did you…

Tell me how

How am I supposed to look at you and not smile? How can I ever see you being so oblivious of my love for you and not be amused by your foolishness? How can I ever be around you and not feel that ache of longing for your acceptance? How can I ever see you…

Anytime you want

Come find me whenever you need me, I promise I’ll be there, always. Come to me when things get tough, I can’t make it any easier, but I promise I’ll stay with you through all of it. Come to me when confusion clouds your mind, I can’t make it any clearer for you, but I…

Why was I never enough for you?

Why was I never enough for you? I try to keep myself busy and to not think about you, but I can’t help it. I can’t stop thinking about the last time that I saw you. I still remember how it felt standing on that platform all alone, watching your train slowly go away, while…

You didn’t let go of me

You kept telling me to go back, that I shouldn’t be out here, in this wilderness, that it wasn’t safe. And yet, contradictory to your words, you didn’t let go of my hand, you didn’t let go of me. You held onto me as if I was the very gravity that pulled you to the…

I wish we had more time

The inevitability of what’s to come, makes me feel so helpless. I know that I can’t and that I shouldn’t, and that I have no right, to stop you from going. A part of me wants you to go back, far away from all this cynicism. However, the other part of me, the part that…

I know I shouldn’t

I know that we’re just delaying the inevitable, and that you’ll have to leave soon. I know that I should be ready and prepared and used to it, by now. But I still feel like the air has been sucked out of my lungs at the very mention of you going away. I know that…

What if?

What if I open my heart up to you? Would you embrace it, or would you demolish the leftover pieces, just like everyone else did? Would you accept its faults and insecurities, along with its kindness and compassion, or would you take advantage of its innocence, and then leave me to fend for myself? Would…

Tore down my own self

“Why am I not enough?” I used to wonder, every single moment of every single day. It seemed as though, everyone would be happier, everything would be nicer, if only I wouldn’t be a part of it. Everything wrong seemed to be because of me, blame upon blame, I showered upon myself. Ruthlessly and cold…

Your Name

Your name is still my favorite. Hearing your name still brings a smile on my face and yet, it also terrifies me. Hearing your name awakens the dormant chaos that resides deep within me, which sometimes seems big enough to consume me, to destroy me, and all I can do in that moment, is to…