Tore down my own self

“Why am I not enough?” I used to wonder, every single moment of every single day. It seemed as though, everyone would be happier, everything would be nicer, if only I wouldn’t be a part of it. Everything wrong seemed to be because of me, blame upon blame, I showered upon myself. Ruthlessly and cold…

Flustered and Terrified

It’s after 5 months that someone dared to speak your name in front of me. I was flustered, terrified… An outrageous revelation followed, but I guess, I just don’t care anymore. I saw your pics last evening, and I almost dropped my phone on the floor. My breaths quickened, and all that I could think…

The Breakdown

The day before yesterday, I had a breakdown. I thought I was better now. I thought I was over it all. Everything was going well. I was exceptionally happy and content with everything in my life. But then, it hit me like BAM! I couldn’t speak, couldn’t even comprehend what others were saying to me….

Memories Tattooed on My Mind

“You’re not with me anymore,” I remind myself every night, and the day after. I say I’m fine, and I actually am. I’m fine with this missing piece of me, I’m used to feeling so desolated. What keeps me up late at nights, and distracts me in the light of the day, are the memories…

Quote #12

The world might be a bad place… but I want to stay here a little while longer. P.S.- After battling with tons of negativity and suicidal thoughts, have you ever wanted to live? Have you ever felt like finally, you’re actually alive and that you don’t merely exist? Share your thoughts below!

One of Those Nights

Tonight is one of those nights when I just can’t get you out of my head. There’s only one thing that I want to ask you. How does it feel knowing that you destroyed the one thing that I had? Tonight is one of those nights when I just lie awake on my bed, and…

All black, no white

You were supposed to tell me that I’m worth it. But instead, you made me question my existence. You were supposed to teach me how to believe in myself. But instead, you made me hate myself. You were supposed to show me how beautiful life can be. But instead, you made me want to end…

Say that you don’t love me

Please don’t pretend. I can’t handle anymore pretension. Just be real, even if it is bound to hurt me like hell. Please don’t say that you love me when you don’t. Please don’t comfort me, only to make yourself feel a bit good about yourself. Please don’t feel guilty for what you feel. ‘Cause I…

Never Mine to Lose

You don’t love me and that’s okay. I didn’t expect you to. Somewhere deep inside, I always knew that I wasn’t capable of your love. It just hurts, knowing that I never had you. You were never mine to lose. But it’s okay. It’s okay if you’re not mine; ’cause I am yours, always will…

White Knight

You’re not my white knight in a shining armor. I thought it was you, but you’re not. I was wrong. You’re just the person whom I love, unconditionally, even though you never come to my rescue. You’re the one , whom I expect nothing from. You’re the one who can hurt me, over and over…