Tore down my own self

“Why am I not enough?” I used to wonder, every single moment of every single day. It seemed as though, everyone would be happier, everything would be nicer, if only I wouldn’t be a part of it. Everything wrong seemed to be because of me, blame upon blame, I showered upon myself. Ruthlessly and cold…

Liberty to be Free

I saw you today, in one of my dreams. And for the first time, my heart didn’t ache, like it always used to. I should have been an emotional wreck, but it barely affected me at all. And I guess, I’ll now take the liberty to declare myself, as officially free from the overwhelming feelings,…

Trying to be Calm

I should be calm and collected, and not be affected, by something that isn’t even in my control. I think, think and think, over-contemplate every little thing, only for me to be left in the ruins of negativity. I try to be worth what I have, but I just can’t seem to catch, the idea…

Highs and Lows

This exhaustion is so intoxicating, making me high, when I’m actually just real down. Maybe I’m not down, maybe I’m better than I’ve ever been before. Being high or down may not be two different things. Being high does not always gives us euphoria, being down doesn’t always means that we’re stressed. Maybe the highs…

One of Those Nights

Tonight is one of those nights when I just can’t get you out of my head. There’s only one thing that I want to ask you. How does it feel knowing that you destroyed the one thing that I had? Tonight is one of those nights when I just lie awake on my bed, and…

Amidst this Serene Silence

It’s been four months since you left. Four months of chaos amidst this serene silence. It’s been four months since I last wrote. Four months of dry spell and unwritten havoc. It’s been four months since I last expressed myself. Four months of solidarity confinement within myself. It’s been four months since I last heard…

All black, no white

You were supposed to tell me that I’m worth it. But instead, you made me question my existence. You were supposed to teach me how to believe in myself. But instead, you made me hate myself. You were supposed to show me how beautiful life can be. But instead, you made me want to end…

White Knight

You’re not my white knight in a shining armor. I thought it was you, but you’re not. I was wrong. You’re just the person whom I love, unconditionally, even though you never come to my rescue. You’re the one , whom I expect nothing from. You’re the one who can hurt me, over and over…

My Unrequited Love

You say that you care, but your actions tell me otherwise. You say that I do matter, but I always feel like an option. You say that you need me, but you’re seldom there when I need you. You say that you love me, then tell me, why do I feel like my love is…

The Autumn Fall

Wanted some thing, the other thing happened. Cool autumn breeze cooling the tears escaping from my eyes. The sun was set, darkness growing, wind gaining speed, leaves falling. Even the nature empathizes with me. Never in my life did I think that it would be you whom I’ll have to call my Autumn Fall. Inspired…