I know I shouldn’t

I know that we’re just delaying the inevitable, and that you’ll have to leave soon. I know that I should be ready and prepared and used to it, by now. But I still feel like the air has been sucked out of my lungs at the very mention of you going away. I know that…

Liberty to be Free

I saw you today, in one of my dreams. And for the first time, my heart didn’t ache, like it always used to. I should have been an emotional wreck, but it barely affected me at all. And I guess, I’ll now take the liberty to declare myself, as officially free from the overwhelming feelings,…

Flustered and Terrified

It’s after 5 months that someone dared to speak your name in front of me. I was flustered, terrified… An outrageous revelation followed, but I guess, I just don’t care anymore. I saw your pics last evening, and I almost dropped my phone on the floor. My breaths quickened, and all that I could think…

A Promise I couldn’t keep

“Promises are made to be broken,” this is what you tell yourself, only to put yourself in a good light. “I’ll always be there for you.” Well, where are you now? “You’re the only one for me.” Like hell! “I love you.” A terrible, terrible lie. “I’ll never let anyone hurt you.” Well this one’s…

Memories Tattooed on My Mind

“You’re not with me anymore,” I remind myself every night, and the day after. I say I’m fine, and I actually am. I’m fine with this missing piece of me, I’m used to feeling so desolated. What keeps me up late at nights, and distracts me in the light of the day, are the memories…

Your Name

Your name is still my favorite. Hearing your name still brings a smile on my face and yet, it also terrifies me. Hearing your name awakens the dormant chaos that resides deep within me, which sometimes seems big enough to consume me, to destroy me, and all I can do in that moment, is to…

One of Those Nights

Tonight is one of those nights when I just can’t get you out of my head. There’s only one thing that I want to ask you. How does it feel knowing that you destroyed the one thing that I had? Tonight is one of those nights when I just lie awake on my bed, and…

Amidst this Serene Silence

It’s been four months since you left. Four months of chaos amidst this serene silence. It’s been four months since I last wrote. Four months of dry spell and unwritten havoc. It’s been four months since I last expressed myself. Four months of solidarity confinement within myself. It’s been four months since I last heard…

Why this hatred, love?

Why is it that you hate me so much? Is it because I’m not pure, or is it because I’m not perfect like your other one? I’ve always longed for your love, like a stranded sailor in the cruel sea. But I always found myself returning empty handed, with a wounded heart. I am your…

Say that you don’t love me

Please don’t pretend. I can’t handle anymore pretension. Just be real, even if it is bound to hurt me like hell. Please don’t say that you love me when you don’t. Please don’t comfort me, only to make yourself feel a bit good about yourself. Please don’t feel guilty for what you feel. ‘Cause I…