Can’t seem to close it

These slowed reverb songs torment me with this space that lies between you and me. Didn’t think it was possible for me to open my heart again, but to you, I just can’t seem to close it. Moments I crave for, your presence I seek for, your smile I’m breathless for. P.S.- What did you…

A Soul stronger than ever before

We were a wretched mess, hanging on by a wafer thin thread, clinging onto little moments of happiness. And when that thread broke, we fell apart and I was left alone, constantly thinking of where it all went wrong. Then I hit my lowest last year, suffocating beneath all that pain, kept fighting for fresh…

Wishing for moments

Remember that day when you hugged me for the very first time? I kept on wishing for the time to stop in that moment, and for you to never let me go. Remember the first time we stayed up all night just to talk to each other? I was already exhausted and my eyes were…

Tell me how

How am I supposed to look at you and not smile? How can I ever see you being so oblivious of my love for you and not be amused by your foolishness? How can I ever be around you and not feel that ache of longing for your acceptance? How can I ever see you…

Anytime you want

Come find me whenever you need me, I promise I’ll be there, always. Come to me when things get tough, I can’t make it any easier, but I promise I’ll stay with you through all of it. Come to me when confusion clouds your mind, I can’t make it any clearer for you, but I…

Why was I never enough for you?

Why was I never enough for you? I try to keep myself busy and to not think about you, but I can’t help it. I can’t stop thinking about the last time that I saw you. I still remember how it felt standing on that platform all alone, watching your train slowly go away, while…

I wish we had more time

The inevitability of what’s to come, makes me feel so helpless. I know that I can’t and that I shouldn’t, and that I have no right, to stop you from going. A part of me wants you to go back, far away from all this cynicism. However, the other part of me, the part that…

I know I shouldn’t

I know that we’re just delaying the inevitable, and that you’ll have to leave soon. I know that I should be ready and prepared and used to it, by now. But I still feel like the air has been sucked out of my lungs at the very mention of you going away. I know that…

What if?

What if I open my heart up to you? Would you embrace it, or would you demolish the leftover pieces, just like everyone else did? Would you accept its faults and insecurities, along with its kindness and compassion, or would you take advantage of its innocence, and then leave me to fend for myself? Would…

Liberty to be Free

I saw you today, in one of my dreams. And for the first time, my heart didn’t ache, like it always used to. I should have been an emotional wreck, but it barely affected me at all. And I guess, I’ll now take the liberty to declare myself, as officially free from the overwhelming feelings,…