Living

Falling, feeling, creating. Living, loving, being. Living.

To be a living paradox

To be truly alive and breathing, to be living and loving, to be sweet and kind, to be innocent and wild, that’s how I aspire to be for the rest of my life. To be with the person I want to be with, to be with the people I love to be with, to be…

All black, no white

You were supposed to tell me that I’m worth it. But instead, you made me question my existence. You were supposed to teach me how to believe in myself. But instead, you made me hate myself. You were supposed to show me how beautiful life can be. But instead, you made me want to end…

Unresolved mess

These past few months, I haven’t been myself. I met some people, who made me aware of parts of me which I myself wasn’t aware of. But being the person that I am, I messed up, again, even with them. I’m sorry, for how I left things, unresolved, between us. I want to talk and…

Back to you

You texted me at 7 in the morning, saying that you can’t stay away, I called you and you said that you want to come back. Hearing your voice was all that it took for me to forget all the anger, pain, emptiness, the hell that I’d been through, ever since you left. Your voice…

A Dream

I saw a dream last night. It was you, with someone else. Someone, who was far more beautiful than me, who was way better than me in every aspect. I was shattered, felt like I couldn’t breathe, and that’s when I woke up. But it’s okay. It’s actually good if you move on with someone…

You

I stay awake all night, on my bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering, “Where did it all go wrong?” Do you ever do the same? You used to say that you won’t ever leave me, that you’d always be there for me. Where are you now that I need you the most? Why did you…

Chaos

It’s a chaos going on inside me. I myself don’t understand the things that I do, the reason why I’m pushing everyone away. I’m scared… that I’m losing everything, everyone that I have. I’m scared I’m isolating myself, and climbing down into the darkness from which you pulled me out. I’m scared that this chaos…

Since you left

You did it again, didn’t you? Left me all alone when I needed you the most? Don’t worry, I didn’t fall apart this time. I’ve grown stronger, you know, since the day you left me in the dark, without any reason. I still have my break downs, but I’ve got better at hiding them, thanks…

The Autumn Fall

Wanted some thing, the other thing happened. Cool autumn breeze cooling the tears escaping from my eyes. The sun was set, darkness growing, wind gaining speed, leaves falling. Even the nature empathizes with me. Never in my life did I think that it would be you whom I’ll have to call my Autumn Fall. Inspired…