Trying to be Calm

I should be calm and collected, and not be affected, by something that isn’t even in my control. I think, think and think, over-contemplate every little thing, only for me to be left in the ruins of negativity. I try to be worth what I have, but I just can’t seem to catch, the idea…

Intoxicating Night

Starless sky, and yet, I find a certain solace, in this darkness that envelopes me. Cool breeze blowing my worries away, warmth of a decent company, making my soul summery. I feel high, I’m high on this night. This intoxication makes me feel so solemn; it almost feels like an awakening. P.S.- What did you…

Flustered and Terrified

It’s after 5 months that someone dared to speak your name in front of me. I was flustered, terrified… An outrageous revelation followed, but I guess, I just don’t care anymore. I saw your pics last evening, and I almost dropped my phone on the floor. My breaths quickened, and all that I could think…

The Breakdown

The day before yesterday, I had a breakdown. I thought I was better now. I thought I was over it all. Everything was going well. I was exceptionally happy and content with everything in my life. But then, it hit me like BAM! I couldn’t speak, couldn’t even comprehend what others were saying to me….

Memories Tattooed on My Mind

“You’re not with me anymore,” I remind myself every night, and the day after. I say I’m fine, and I actually am. I’m fine with this missing piece of me, I’m used to feeling so desolated. What keeps me up late at nights, and distracts me in the light of the day, are the memories…

Your Name

Your name is still my favorite. Hearing your name still brings a smile on my face and yet, it also terrifies me. Hearing your name awakens the dormant chaos that resides deep within me, which sometimes seems big enough to consume me, to destroy me, and all I can do in that moment, is to…

One of Those Nights

Tonight is one of those nights when I just can’t get you out of my head. There’s only one thing that I want to ask you. How does it feel knowing that you destroyed the one thing that I had? Tonight is one of those nights when I just lie awake on my bed, and…

Let’s just stay together

Let’s get high and never come back down. Let’s go climb that mountain which I can see from my window, and carve our names out, on the bark of the tallest tree, with a heart around it. Let’s go out on a walk on roads with canopy, and take the long way back, and talk…

All black, no white

You were supposed to tell me that I’m worth it. But instead, you made me question my existence. You were supposed to teach me how to believe in myself. But instead, you made me hate myself. You were supposed to show me how beautiful life can be. But instead, you made me want to end…

Why this hatred, love?

Why is it that you hate me so much? Is it because I’m not pure, or is it because I’m not perfect like your other one? I’ve always longed for your love, like a stranded sailor in the cruel sea. But I always found myself returning empty handed, with a wounded heart. I am your…