I need time

“I need time,” I told you on the second day of the journey that we started on together. I don’t know what exactly this is that I need time for. I myself don’t understand most of the things that I say, but I do genuinely feel them. Maybe it’s to get a grasp of reality,…

From Suffocation to Contentment

Suffocating it was, to not be able to say what I really wanted you to know. Maddening it was, to keep pretending to be okay with everything. Relieved I am, when on the second day, I told you that I need time. Content I am, now that you know, exactly what I want and need….

What if?

What if I open my heart up to you? Would you embrace it, or would you demolish the leftover pieces, just like everyone else did? Would you accept its faults and insecurities, along with its kindness and compassion, or would you take advantage of its innocence, and then leave me to fend for myself? Would…

Tore down my own self

“Why am I not enough?” I used to wonder, every single moment of every single day. It seemed as though, everyone would be happier, everything would be nicer, if only I wouldn’t be a part of it. Everything wrong seemed to be because of me, blame upon blame, I showered upon myself. Ruthlessly and cold…

Liberty to be Free

I saw you today, in one of my dreams. And for the first time, my heart didn’t ache, like it always used to. I should have been an emotional wreck, but it barely affected me at all. And I guess, I’ll now take the liberty to declare myself, as officially free from the overwhelming feelings,…

Intoxicating Night

Starless sky, and yet, I find a certain solace, in this darkness that envelopes me. Cool breeze blowing my worries away, warmth of a decent company, making my soul summery. I feel high, I’m high on this night. This intoxication makes me feel so solemn; it almost feels like an awakening. P.S.- What did you…

Flustered and Terrified

It’s after 5 months that someone dared to speak your name in front of me. I was flustered, terrified… An outrageous revelation followed, but I guess, I just don’t care anymore. I saw your pics last evening, and I almost dropped my phone on the floor. My breaths quickened, and all that I could think…

Dear Stranger

Dear Stranger, our meeting was a pure coincidence. Started with emails, continued with texts. Then, the calls started, and the late night video calls followed. From my first relationship to my first ever heartbreak, you’ve been with me, through them all. You’re annoying sometimes, but you never let my smile falter. Even though we’ve never…

A Promise I couldn’t keep

“Promises are made to be broken,” this is what you tell yourself, only to put yourself in a good light. “I’ll always be there for you.” Well, where are you now? “You’re the only one for me.” Like hell! “I love you.” A terrible, terrible lie. “I’ll never let anyone hurt you.” Well this one’s…

Memories Tattooed on My Mind

“You’re not with me anymore,” I remind myself every night, and the day after. I say I’m fine, and I actually am. I’m fine with this missing piece of me, I’m used to feeling so desolated. What keeps me up late at nights, and distracts me in the light of the day, are the memories…