I’m not you

Please. Just stop trying to control every fucking thing in my life. Who to talk to, what to wear, when to sleep and what to feel. Please just let me be. I know you care, want only good for me, but it gets suffocating, constantly trying to mould myself into the person that you want…

Tore down my own self

“Why am I not enough?” I used to wonder, every single moment of every single day. It seemed as though, everyone would be happier, everything would be nicer, if only I wouldn’t be a part of it. Everything wrong seemed to be because of me, blame upon blame, I showered upon myself. Ruthlessly and cold…

Trying to be Calm

I should be calm and collected, and not be affected, by something that isn’t even in my control. I think, think and think, over-contemplate every little thing, only for me to be left in the ruins of negativity. I try to be worth what I have, but I just can’t seem to catch, the idea…

Flustered and Terrified

It’s after 5 months that someone dared to speak your name in front of me. I was flustered, terrified… An outrageous revelation followed, but I guess, I just don’t care anymore. I saw your pics last evening, and I almost dropped my phone on the floor. My breaths quickened, and all that I could think…

The Breakdown

The day before yesterday, I had a breakdown. I thought I was better now. I thought I was over it all. Everything was going well. I was exceptionally happy and content with everything in my life. But then, it hit me like BAM! I couldn’t speak, couldn’t even comprehend what others were saying to me….

Memories Tattooed on My Mind

“You’re not with me anymore,” I remind myself every night, and the day after. I say I’m fine, and I actually am. I’m fine with this missing piece of me, I’m used to feeling so desolated. What keeps me up late at nights, and distracts me in the light of the day, are the memories…

Your Name

Your name is still my favorite. Hearing your name still brings a smile on my face and yet, it also terrifies me. Hearing your name awakens the dormant chaos that resides deep within me, which sometimes seems big enough to consume me, to destroy me, and all I can do in that moment, is to…

Quote #12

The world might be a bad place… but I want to stay here a little while longer. P.S.- After battling with tons of negativity and suicidal thoughts, have you ever wanted to live? Have you ever felt like finally, you’re actually alive and that you don’t merely exist? Share your thoughts below!

One of Those Nights

Tonight is one of those nights when I just can’t get you out of my head. There’s only one thing that I want to ask you. How does it feel knowing that you destroyed the one thing that I had? Tonight is one of those nights when I just lie awake on my bed, and…

Amidst this Serene Silence

It’s been four months since you left. Four months of chaos amidst this serene silence. It’s been four months since I last wrote. Four months of dry spell and unwritten havoc. It’s been four months since I last expressed myself. Four months of solidarity confinement within myself. It’s been four months since I last heard…