Please just stay

There are people who love me, whom I am so grateful to have,

and yet, even they can’t get through to me,

I can’t let even them in.

It’s so hot, and so dark even though the light’s on,

I’m sweating and crying and shaking, and I can’t find an escape.

I splash water on my face, over and over again,

as if to clean myself, as if to erase myself.

It’s burning hot and I’m losing myself in these flames,

keep reminding myself to breathe, in and out,

in the hope and strength, out the tears, heat and pain.

I can’t explain, can’t elaborate, can’t put it into words,

I try but I fail again and again, and I’m sick of trying and failing.

Maybe it’s a phase that I’ll get over, even though I haven’t in all these years,

maybe it’s a sickness that lies deep inside my heart that can’t be cured.

I can’t speak out the words, can’t ask you to stay,

but please stay, I don’t want to be alone, not when I’m like this.

Stay even when I tell you to go away, but please stay.

I know you don’t understand, even I don’t, but please stay.

Please hold me while I put my pieces back together,

don’t try to help, don’t try to do anything, but please, just stay.

P.S.-

Do you ever feel like this? Let me know what you think of this poem in the comment section below!

33 Comments Add yours

  1. vaniheart says:

    Beautiful ❤❤❤

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    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you ♥

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  2. Jokerswild says:

    So touching lovely, every word and very understandable. I feel in life there are things you have to get through by yourself but you won’t to face them alone.♥️. And when you say “just stay”, that’s where that comes in, that support will run deep and those who won’t abandon will make you stronger. Like I say, if they can’t stand by you at your worst, they don’t deserve you at your best♥️…and as far as I’m concerned you have no worst.🌹, we all have off days but support shows who you are. This poem shows who you are, heartfelt, supportive and someone who knows their feelings as well as others.♥️

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    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you so much Roy. It feels really heartwarming and comforting to know that there’s someone out there who gets me. Thank you for being one of those people ♥♥

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      1. Jokerswild says:

        I can say the same thing, you are amazing and you make others special.🌹♥️. Thank you.

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      2. Sonali says:

        Thank you! ❤️❤️

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  3. I can feel the pain, the convoluted emotions juxtaposition against some competing thoughts.
    If the protagonist is you, I dearly wish you get peace, clarity and love you so deserve. 💕

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    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you so much. Your words really mean a lot to me ♥♥

      Liked by 1 person

      1. My absolute pleasure. Stay beautiful

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      2. Sonali says:

        You too ♥

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  4. The pain, the agony and the confusion is palpable. Beautifully written 😃

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    1. I hope this was fiction.

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      1. Sonali says:

        Not really ♥

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      2. Makes it all the more wonderful that you were able to put yourself in someone one’s shoes and write about it. That’s a mark of a great writer. Well done, Sonali

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      3. Sonali says:

        Thank you ♥♥

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      4. Sonali says:

        Yes it is

        Like

    2. Sonali says:

      Thank you ♥

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  5. Gibberish says:

    Beautifully written and yes we all have such days when all we want is a hug from someone who will tell us that everything will be ok….sometimes that’s all we need to regain our calm…if no one else does that, we gotta do that ourself….be our own best friend…I hope you’re feeling better…hugs to you 🤗💓

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    1. Sonali says:

      True that and thank you, you’re too kind❤️❤️

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  6. skipread says:

    I can relate. Beautiful poem! 🙂

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    1. Sonali says:

      I’m sorry that you relate to this, hope things get better for you soon❤️❤️
      And thank you!!

      Like

  7. I felt this, going through things alone yet surrounded by people. Feeling lonely in a crowded room. Beautiful this

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    1. Sonali says:

      That does feel really lonely. Thank you!

      Like

  8. Manish Malu says:

    This is so beautifully written and touching 😊💕

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you, I’m glad you liked it ♥

      Liked by 1 person

  9. Rupali says:

    Heartfelt.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you ♥

      Like

    1. Sonali says:

      Thank you so much! ♥♥

      Liked by 1 person

  10. Always a pleasure to read and share your posts with followers, My Friend!! Have a great day!
    😊👍✨✨🎉

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sonali says:

      You too ♥♥

      Like

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