You said that we would always be
Without you I feel lost at sea
Through the darkness you’d hide with me
Like the wind we’d be wild and free
You said you’d follow me anywhere
But your eyes tell me you won’t be there
Avicii feat. Sandro Cavazza
There are some people who affect you so much that your definition of life changes. They change you without you even realizing it. And when you do realize, it’s already too late for you to do anything. You’ve already changed, in a way that you can never change yourself back to as you were. You feel like a stranger to yourself. And there’s nothing that you can do about it.
You realize that that person has changed you way too much to go back to as you were. And then you realize that you can’t do anything. You have no option. You just have to accept the new you. You just have to come to good terms with the new you, the changed you. Because you can’t live in conflict with yourself forever.
Accepting yourself is one of the hardest things to do. But believe me, once you accept yourself, you’ll be the happiest person in the world.
And then, you realize that that person is not good for you, that you need to let him go. But you’re already so attached to him that you simply can’t bear to live without him. But deep in your heart, you know that you have to. And after all those late night thinking, you’ll finally, have to do this,… let him go.
Even push him away if that’s what it takes to get him away from you.
That hurts, living without that person knowing they’ll never come back… It hurts a lot. But you know that you have no other option. You just have to live without him.
And you also know that you’ll never get over that person, that they’ll always hold a special place in your heart, in your life. And finally, you just have to learn to live without him.
So finally, there were people who were special to me. But, I realized that they were not good for me, that I deserved better and I let them go. And that hurt me… a lot. And I won’t say that I’ve stopped hurting… But now, I’ve learnt to live without them, with their memories…